星期四, 1月 31, 2019

出入平安


今天不畫,寫大字。有幾個月沒練毛筆字了。母親一直念,要我去買張出入平安貼在屋裡。我說,我自己寫。

星期四, 1月 24, 2019

比悲傷更悲傷的故事



我是先看到這個影片,才知道這部戲的。
後來,發現有在大馬上映,因此一直念念不忘的想去看。
再後來,看見別人的評論說,男主和女主很渣,拆散了別人的感情,故事很狗血。
我只是從別人片面的評論而覺得,有同感。
加上知道自己一定會哭得不能自己,因此一直猶豫,想看又抗拒著。

後來的後來,我終於鼓起勇氣去看了。
幸好,戲院還有放映這部戲。
最令我覺得最悲傷的是Cream在隧道裡歇斯底里的吶喊。
別走,不可以走,停下來!
我的心,都碎了。
如果勇敢地這麼的吶喊,是否會回頭?

看了戲後,我並不覺得男主和女主像別人表示的渣。
愛情,是自私的。
自己沒有那樣的愛情,不表示別人不能擁有。

多少人結婚、在一起,是因為愛情?
我看過太多的是因為時間到了,因為責任,因為習慣。
有多少人真正的履行愛情的宣言?
再後來又和別的對象宣誓愛情宣言⋯⋯
再不然繼續湊合過日子。
要不,住在同一個屋簷下,過著各自的生活?

嗯,難怪Cream會寫下那首歌,讓K唱。
她早就知道他的事了。

戲裡的歌不多,首首都好聽。
在片尾的時候,發現陳建騏的名字。
有種難怪音樂弄得這麼好的感覺⋯⋯

然後,帶著哭腫的眼睛,走出戲院。



其實,看了這個被刪了的剪片,牙醫早就知道Cream愛的是K啊⋯⋯

愛情

星期二, 1月 01, 2019

時間

My 2018 annual review

Looking back to my records, I only did a proper review in 2015, inspired by James Clear. I mostly did was just the summary of my year.

Let's get back on track. Frankly speaking, after reading back my moving forwards section in 2015 review, I just bought related books and tools and didn't work on it since then. The only thing that I could unproudly say is, I started some tabata exercise since September last year. But I stopped gradually then drastically after that. :D

Alright, let's begin the review for last year.

What went well this year?


Courses

I passed the CCSP examination. I managed to finished 3 books in preparation for it. I did note taking for most of the chapters. My mock exams start from ~70% correct answer, at the border of passing the examination mark to ~80%. I don't know how much I score in the real exam, but I am sure I did it quite well. :D

I also attended a speed reading introduction. It did help me in preparing my CCSP.

I have finished my 1-year SimplyPiano subscription, manage to complete 9 courses (according to my android app record, not sure if it has the same complete courses as in IOS). I am continue my subscription to pick up piano in 2019 too.

Readings

I read about 25 books last year. Mostly had my reading at Popular, and didn't spend much time to read my own books. Mainly because, I spent my lunch time and dinner time to read there. Read a few tool-books (工具書), which I think not bad.

Job

I am given an additional role in my current organisation, business analyst. I have been holding this role for a few months, wrote a functional document, and assist bit here and there. For this role, I have signed up IDF recently, and taking Design Thinking course currently. I hope it helps. :)

Trips

I didn't do much trip this year, but... I went for Encore-Malacca, a hike at Gunung Pulut, and Hua Hin (my only oversea trip).

Blogging

I don't know where to put this category, because I am not quite satisfied with my blogging record last year. I did not complete my write up for 2017 Iceland trip. Looking back at those blog entries, I must say I did them quite well. I will put the culprits in the next section.


What didn't go so well this year?


Courses

My ITIL exam, though pass, at 75%, but I am not satisfied.

Diet

In 2015, I wrote that I stopped eating spicy food. On the contrary, I ate a lot of tomyum last year, and that's my top one favourite food! I tried to cut down sugar intake, but that just limited to the one week that I spent with myself in preparing for CCSP exam in September. I hope I can turn off my craving of sugar, and spicy food... but I just bought 2 bottles of tomyum and sambal for my meal cooking...

Photography

Didn't do much photography this year.

Bad planning

Yes, I should put this in one category. I have been dragging my CCSP exam for very long, almost a year. I had my course in WW02, and only took the exam in WW49! In between, I only spent around 2-3 weeks to prepare for the exam, then went for it. For this, I stopped myself from doing any other productive works, such as blogging and song recording. I didn't even dare to think of writing songs.

And my procrastination and the sick-addict to novels also another culprit for this. I must reduce procrastination and plan a time to feed my novel addict, so they won't take up so much time that would make me neglect something more important!

What am I working towards?


I will work out a plan, that I am proud to present like I did in my 2010 and 2011 summary. Be it songs, novels, articles...

Plan for 2019 includes drawings (focusing on water colour), IDF courses, Piano courses, writings (focusing on brush lettering, 楷體, 瘦金體), journaling, a list of 10 books, learn to swim, and travel plans. :)

回顧2018,迎接2019

2018結束了。

點盤去年的一些點點滴滴。

一月
很積極的學日語,第二張CD在開車的途中學完了。噢!那個時候也在用Duolingo學法語呢!每週練琴五次。iPhone第一次跌碎。上了CCSP的課程,這個課程原本是要在2017年完成及考試及格的。拖至2018年,終於完成。還有,完全沒有寫部落格!去了檳城,還有去了Planetarium看超級月亮,才發現是看螢幕的⋯⋯

二月
完成了2017年的photobook。沒有在學日語。學法語和練琴方面也停了下來。不過,開始寫冰島的旅程了。

三月
計畫完成2009年在澳洲最後兩天的行程和溫習CCSP的。結果,(深呼吸)沒辦到。這個月⋯⋯和妹妹去吃了一次免費日本料理自由餐,和母親去了黑風洞,去Menara 3 KLCC參加了一個和FreeBSD相關的分享會。噢!還有,咱一家一起去戲院看了《大大噠》。

四月
零零散散的練琴、練字。(這些是根據在日記本裡的打卡狀況來形容的,笑~)參加了小學同學會。和偶像Dr. Mazlan碰面了!!也和舊同事在KLSentral共午餐。父親在其中的一個週五過來和我一起吃午餐!還有和媽媽、妹妹一起給房子油漆。那個月,SimplyPiano的課程到了要點3了。

五月
和舊同事Ops team聚會、打保齡球。和ML去了在東禪寺舉行的閱讀博覽會。噢!投票日!還有投票後自己躲進禪修10天!

六月
開始在午休的時候練字,不過練字記錄也不怎麼樣。和ML去爬Broga Hill。開始#每日一問,才弄了三篇。哈哈!和JenC通了電話。好久沒聯繫了。上傳了《深信不疑》。去年,就只錄了這首上傳。ML給我慶祝生日,我們去了Petaling Street吃晚餐、逛花市。

七月
和ET去了Petaling Street。和ML去爬Gunung Pulut。帶母親到表弟的點去用晚餐。去探望KY,不過沒看到小Baby。這個月,大發脾氣兩次都被記錄下來了。為了什麼就不記得了。哈哈!

八月
上半月挺積極的練字。和母親一日約會,去了1U逛花園、打保齡球和看戲。工作天午餐時間去唱K。去參加了一個Petrosains的event。參加了一個兩小時的速度班介紹。去了馬六甲觀賞了《又見馬六甲》,還有去了泰國華欣!

九月
這個月又開始積極的溫習CCSP、寫部落格、練字、練琴,還開始做運動了!拿了一個星期的假期,在家專心溫習CCSP,還訂製了一套飲食和溫習方案!那個時候嘗試減糖增油的飲食。也開始給自己弄防彈咖啡來喝。出關的時候,情緒有失控,不曉得是因為減糖飲食的關係,還是自己的個性使然。買了盞桌燈。:)嗯,還有一個想紀念的是,隔了這麼多年,身為外孫女,終於有機會拜拜外公、外婆了。對外公的樣子不是很深刻了,不過⋯⋯那個感覺什麼的,還是那麼的深刻。

十月
我錯了,應該沿著有辦到就打勾,沒辦到就留白。這個月的打卡部份,我畫了個交叉。結果很難的辨別自己的打卡記錄。呵呵~不過,應該是因為Inktober的關係,每日都有po文章咧!和爸爸約會、看戲。同一天中午和晚上,給ET和ML慶祝生日。她們都在生日當天沒騰出時間給我。T_T 去了黑風洞的Dark Cave、書法展、Central Market,上了一堂繪畫班。po了與檜之對話小說

十一月
看完了《散落星河的記憶》,久久不能自己。突然得到從美國PM的讚賞,有點失措。公司抽獎得到了一台量血壓機。和103的夥伴去了天空之鏡。買了紅米手機,放棄了蘋果。ET送了一套Tombow brush pen!!

十二月
因為訂了考試日期,於是考試前,終於又開始積極溫習CCSP了。CCSP和ITIL的考試都通過了!計畫考完試要開始錄歌的,結果錄了一首,效果還不滿意,就不了了之了。和住在KL-Selangor的SCC同學聚會,還去唱K。繼續subscribe SimplyPiano,雖然沒有再用蘋果了。也花了五百多塊subscribe一個online training,IDF。為明年“鋪路”。這個月花了很多時間看網路小說,真糟糕,連眼睛都“練”得紅絲都糾纏不清了。給家人買了“聖誕禮物”。參加了Tiger的聖誕party交換禮物,得到了一個bluetooth小音響。給HN弄了一個brush lettering的禮物作為移居新家的禮物。送出了兩份生日禮物,HN和SS的。

接下來,這個是2018年的手帳本。幾個月前po過的。


經過一些參考其他人的子彈筆記,還有根據自己的一些習慣,2019年整理了一套記錄方案。


第一本是繪畫記錄,每日一頁的。最薄那本做閱讀/電影記錄,新增的。第三本藍色的,就是每日一頁的記事簿,還有記錄檢討和mood tracker。最後一本是有時間軸的,記錄一些計畫、打卡,還有飲食記錄。上個月開始用手機記帳了。2018啟用的五年日記簿也會繼續使用。不曉得會不會有不一樣的答案,2019年尾就知道啦~

翻找了以前的每年回顧,真的羨慕以前的自己。還好,今年不是最糟的⋯⋯

2009
2010
2011
2012
2013-12013-2
2014 - 沒有!
2015
2016
2017 - 也沒有!!

最好的,是2010和2011的吧。還想把舊部落格關掉。看了2010的,就捨不得關了。繼續養下去吧。

希望未來給2019年寫回顧的時候,信子希望可以像2010和2011年那樣,成就感滿滿的!加油啦!

應該還會再寫一個review,像2015年那樣的。:)