星期六, 8月 21, 2021
星期六, 7月 31, 2021
分開旅行
我開始了新系列。一開始,我在掙扎著,要在主要頻道,還是次頻道上傳。最後,還是選擇了次頻道。首頻道一開始,是要發表自己的創作的,現在弄得很混亂。除了創作相關的,還有畫畫、翻翻樂等。
這支影片用了一台相機,兩台手機錄影。不過,紅米的那台手機,錄製到一半就停了。我都沒察覺。下次,還是用一台相機或手機錄影就夠了。編輯影片的時候,説不出的多工啊!
話說回來,這是我這次獨白裏的一段話。
在一段感情裏,分開旅行,意味著各自獨立。你有你想去的地方,我有我想見的風景。你沒想要跟我分享你的世界,我的世界你也別想走進來。我是這麽……翻譯的。如果發生在一段感情的剛開始階段,那麽彼此也不用談什麽安全感、依賴感之説。或許其中一方慢熱,或雙方都慢熱?這個說不定。日子久了,應該就會彼此分享彼此的生活、喜好了吧?應該也會嘗試進入彼此的世界、相互遷就。
不過,談了個三年的戀愛,我只是打個比方,雙方再來進入一直分開旅行的階段,我想……這段感情很大可能只是因爲寂寞才在一起。當不寂寞的時候,就各自生活。而說好的愛情呢?可能只是假象吧?
我覺得,感情久了,一旦開始分開旅行了,説不定慢慢就走遠了。就算原本在人生道路上有一致的方向,慢慢地也會偏斜,最後成了不會再相交的平行綫。
這支影片用了一台相機,兩台手機錄影。不過,紅米的那台手機,錄製到一半就停了。我都沒察覺。下次,還是用一台相機或手機錄影就夠了。編輯影片的時候,説不出的多工啊!
話說回來,這是我這次獨白裏的一段話。
在一段感情裏,分開旅行,意味著各自獨立。你有你想去的地方,我有我想見的風景。你沒想要跟我分享你的世界,我的世界你也別想走進來。我是這麽……翻譯的。如果發生在一段感情的剛開始階段,那麽彼此也不用談什麽安全感、依賴感之説。或許其中一方慢熱,或雙方都慢熱?這個說不定。日子久了,應該就會彼此分享彼此的生活、喜好了吧?應該也會嘗試進入彼此的世界、相互遷就。
不過,談了個三年的戀愛,我只是打個比方,雙方再來進入一直分開旅行的階段,我想……這段感情很大可能只是因爲寂寞才在一起。當不寂寞的時候,就各自生活。而說好的愛情呢?可能只是假象吧?
我覺得,感情久了,一旦開始分開旅行了,説不定慢慢就走遠了。就算原本在人生道路上有一致的方向,慢慢地也會偏斜,最後成了不會再相交的平行綫。
星期三, 7月 21, 2021
骨痛熱症記
進入骨痛熱症第……11天。
目前,皮膚還是癢癢的。今天月經又再次失調。嚴格來說,這是這個月的第三次來月經了……說心裏不擔心,是假的。上個星期,因爲事隔兩個星期再來月經,根據危險情形包括不規律的月經,因此入院。醫生讓我吃了一些荷爾蒙藥。根據網上介紹,一天只能吃10毫克的,醫生已經讓我每天吃15毫克了,經過吃了三天后,月經終於停了。今天,又來了。我真無語。醫生有另外給我荷爾蒙藥,說需要的時候再吃,不過……我要吃嗎?
今天……我還是明天再去驗血好了。才停止驗血第三天,讓我的血管可以好好休息一下下,明天又得抽血了,覺得很懊惱。手臂上、手背上的淤青還明明白白的擱在那裏呢!
這部落格文有點語無倫次。唉~
在醫院待了三個晚上。每晚因爲護士查房、檢查血壓什麽的,每晚得醒個六、七次。在醫院,除了三餐合胃口外,還真的不比在家修養好。終於血小板上升了,醫生說可以回家休養了,又來個出血狀況。我可鬱悶極了。由於肝臟檢測結果也不怎麽好,因此也不敢亂吃、亂喝什麽。真是的……
那天一開始的時候,頭疼得不得了,又發燒。這樣就在家度過了一個晚上。隔天,看到自己的症狀和covid 19的症狀有相似,於是先去弄covid test。結果還好,不是covid。看了醫生后,醫生懷疑是骨痛熱症。其實,當天就已經可以確診了,不過醫生太早看那個dengue test result,因此隔天再做檢查的時候才確診。這樣就到了第三天。醫生說,要去Hospital Tanjung Karang,要登記為骨痛熱症病患之類的,要向衛生局上報等……由於我的血液有限,於是隔天才去醫院報道。
結果,終於到了Hospital Tanjung Karang,護士說他們只接待covid patient,要我去附近的Klinik Kesihatan驗血。結果,我又一番折騰的去了瓜雪。在外面,我看見只接受預約,我簡直要崩潰了。後來不知怎麽的,就抽血、驗血!當時的體溫是38度C。醫生給了我一張小粉紅卡。當時的血小板指數是110了。當天,衛生局派了一些官員來家裏勘察,甚至來做fogging了。我當時想,我還是去那診所抽血檢查吧。去KK太折騰了。
結果,那粉紅卡後面記著一些危險狀況,其中一項就是出血。我月經才剛結束沒多久,又出血了。去診所的時候,醫生說一定要入院了。我正焦慮著,聼著妹妹和朋友的建議在選去哪閒醫院……診所的護士又說反正都是一樣的,隨便給她選一間醫院就好了,弄得我還沒被骨痛熱症打敗,就先被選醫院打敗。最後選了靠近妹妹家的醫院,以方便爲主,Columbia Asia Klang Hospital。不過,根據公司的醫藥卡,out patient not covered,後來的復診,也不covered,還真讓人無奈。
我是下午兩點抵達醫院,一直折騰到晚上九點才得以入住病房。三點多才開始covid及其他test,下午五點多,covid test result negative,醫生才肯見一面。說,恭喜,不是covid,confirm是骨痛熱症。明天再見。下午七點多,我還在急診室。我問起什麽時候才能入住病房,晚餐什麽時候?護士說……晚餐時間已過,外面時間也已過了……到了八點多,他們說先讓另一病人入住settle down廿多分鐘后就輪到我。結果,我等到了九點多。我該覺得慶幸先吃了半碗雞粥才去醫院嗎?
隔天,終於有好的伙食了。整個夜晚,也不知道被折騰起身了多少次。在醫院養病竟然比在家裏還要累。所幸的是,餐點還合胃口。要不然,我還真不曉得住院時是爲了更折騰嗎?手臂上的針孔也被插得一直隱隱作痛,無法入睡。終於再插另一針來吊水……
連續幾晚都無法好好入睡。要麽剛要睡着,房門就被粗魯的打開,又是測量血壓什麽的。由於血壓低,護士就重複測量。換另一隻手量,最後要我坐起來量,才肯罷休。這簡直是爲了交差嘛~
折騰了幾天,血小板從一直下降終於回彈了,我終於可以回家了。看賬單,我給氣壞了。憑什麽給我驗身孕啊?!還要我自己掏腰包付款呢!這還不要緊。轉了個千山萬水,終於去到了急診部付費,要走回去的時候,卻不讓進去。醫生說,誰知道我在外和什麽人接觸,萬一有covid怎麽辦?!真想爆粗。又是你讓我從這裏走出去付錢,付完錢我沿路走回去又怎麽啦?結果,我還不是從大門繼續走囘病房等下一個指示?!什麽狗屁不通的規則?!
我也告訴護士說,星期六不去復診了,保險不包復診。我沒這麽多錢給他們折騰。朋友問說AIA給的是什麽醫藥卡?我也不懂。他說,可以申請我的GE醫藥卡。我說,還是算了。
原本打算星期五或星期六再去驗血。我想,由於現在情況特殊,我還是明早再去驗血看看會比較好。
上司剛才寄來問候,我還沒回復。也不懂要怎麽回復。告訴他,我又有出血狀況了?煩死了。我現在就只能努力的喝水中……多休息中……惱人的濕疹狀況又出現。唉~
信子,加油吧!你是打不到的小强!
目前,皮膚還是癢癢的。今天月經又再次失調。嚴格來說,這是這個月的第三次來月經了……說心裏不擔心,是假的。上個星期,因爲事隔兩個星期再來月經,根據危險情形包括不規律的月經,因此入院。醫生讓我吃了一些荷爾蒙藥。根據網上介紹,一天只能吃10毫克的,醫生已經讓我每天吃15毫克了,經過吃了三天后,月經終於停了。今天,又來了。我真無語。醫生有另外給我荷爾蒙藥,說需要的時候再吃,不過……我要吃嗎?
今天……我還是明天再去驗血好了。才停止驗血第三天,讓我的血管可以好好休息一下下,明天又得抽血了,覺得很懊惱。手臂上、手背上的淤青還明明白白的擱在那裏呢!
這部落格文有點語無倫次。唉~
在醫院待了三個晚上。每晚因爲護士查房、檢查血壓什麽的,每晚得醒個六、七次。在醫院,除了三餐合胃口外,還真的不比在家修養好。終於血小板上升了,醫生說可以回家休養了,又來個出血狀況。我可鬱悶極了。由於肝臟檢測結果也不怎麽好,因此也不敢亂吃、亂喝什麽。真是的……
那天一開始的時候,頭疼得不得了,又發燒。這樣就在家度過了一個晚上。隔天,看到自己的症狀和covid 19的症狀有相似,於是先去弄covid test。結果還好,不是covid。看了醫生后,醫生懷疑是骨痛熱症。其實,當天就已經可以確診了,不過醫生太早看那個dengue test result,因此隔天再做檢查的時候才確診。這樣就到了第三天。醫生說,要去Hospital Tanjung Karang,要登記為骨痛熱症病患之類的,要向衛生局上報等……由於我的血液有限,於是隔天才去醫院報道。
結果,終於到了Hospital Tanjung Karang,護士說他們只接待covid patient,要我去附近的Klinik Kesihatan驗血。結果,我又一番折騰的去了瓜雪。在外面,我看見只接受預約,我簡直要崩潰了。後來不知怎麽的,就抽血、驗血!當時的體溫是38度C。醫生給了我一張小粉紅卡。當時的血小板指數是110了。當天,衛生局派了一些官員來家裏勘察,甚至來做fogging了。我當時想,我還是去那診所抽血檢查吧。去KK太折騰了。
結果,那粉紅卡後面記著一些危險狀況,其中一項就是出血。我月經才剛結束沒多久,又出血了。去診所的時候,醫生說一定要入院了。我正焦慮著,聼著妹妹和朋友的建議在選去哪閒醫院……診所的護士又說反正都是一樣的,隨便給她選一間醫院就好了,弄得我還沒被骨痛熱症打敗,就先被選醫院打敗。最後選了靠近妹妹家的醫院,以方便爲主,Columbia Asia Klang Hospital。不過,根據公司的醫藥卡,out patient not covered,後來的復診,也不covered,還真讓人無奈。
我是下午兩點抵達醫院,一直折騰到晚上九點才得以入住病房。三點多才開始covid及其他test,下午五點多,covid test result negative,醫生才肯見一面。說,恭喜,不是covid,confirm是骨痛熱症。明天再見。下午七點多,我還在急診室。我問起什麽時候才能入住病房,晚餐什麽時候?護士說……晚餐時間已過,外面時間也已過了……到了八點多,他們說先讓另一病人入住settle down廿多分鐘后就輪到我。結果,我等到了九點多。我該覺得慶幸先吃了半碗雞粥才去醫院嗎?
隔天,終於有好的伙食了。整個夜晚,也不知道被折騰起身了多少次。在醫院養病竟然比在家裏還要累。所幸的是,餐點還合胃口。要不然,我還真不曉得住院時是爲了更折騰嗎?手臂上的針孔也被插得一直隱隱作痛,無法入睡。終於再插另一針來吊水……
連續幾晚都無法好好入睡。要麽剛要睡着,房門就被粗魯的打開,又是測量血壓什麽的。由於血壓低,護士就重複測量。換另一隻手量,最後要我坐起來量,才肯罷休。這簡直是爲了交差嘛~
折騰了幾天,血小板從一直下降終於回彈了,我終於可以回家了。看賬單,我給氣壞了。憑什麽給我驗身孕啊?!還要我自己掏腰包付款呢!這還不要緊。轉了個千山萬水,終於去到了急診部付費,要走回去的時候,卻不讓進去。醫生說,誰知道我在外和什麽人接觸,萬一有covid怎麽辦?!真想爆粗。又是你讓我從這裏走出去付錢,付完錢我沿路走回去又怎麽啦?結果,我還不是從大門繼續走囘病房等下一個指示?!什麽狗屁不通的規則?!
我也告訴護士說,星期六不去復診了,保險不包復診。我沒這麽多錢給他們折騰。朋友問說AIA給的是什麽醫藥卡?我也不懂。他說,可以申請我的GE醫藥卡。我說,還是算了。
原本打算星期五或星期六再去驗血。我想,由於現在情況特殊,我還是明早再去驗血看看會比較好。
上司剛才寄來問候,我還沒回復。也不懂要怎麽回復。告訴他,我又有出血狀況了?煩死了。我現在就只能努力的喝水中……多休息中……惱人的濕疹狀況又出現。唉~
信子,加油吧!你是打不到的小强!
星期日, 7月 04, 2021
信情札記 | 風起了
這是去年九月拍的影片。對我來說,MCO開始以來,我的生活,就拘束于家鄉的一片小天空。偶爾放鬆管制令的時候,才說可以去遠一點點的地方。
有好幾次,嘗試想捕捉葉子在風中搖曳的影片,但是都宣告失敗。後來,我嘗試一手持手機,一手輕搖樹枝,假裝它被風吹著。影片錄得有點搞笑。
這支影片是少數成功等來風吹開來的時光。不過,時間有點過短,有點不完整的感覺。在這有限的時空下,我還真想不到要弄什麽影片……
星期六, 6月 26, 2021
信情札記 | 2015仰光環城火車行
今天走在回憶通道中。看到了這支影片,想起當年在緬甸的一些記憶片段,還有一直未完成的旅行記錄。
我在想,人的思緒還真的很奇妙。如果不做回想,不去回憶,常常會忘記初衷,會忘記自己的適應能力。把自己圈在自己給自己圍起來的“舒適區”,净羡慕在“外”的人、埋怨現況,卻忘了自己也可以出走的本能。我想遠了。
我愿,就算只能待在家中,也能持續的突破自己,繼續前進。累了,就休息吧。
最後,祝自己,快樂。
星期一, 6月 21, 2021
我,喜歡你。
最近迷上追劇。以為看完上一部【完美先生,差不多小姐】後,會停個十天、八天的,沒想到⋯⋯就繼續看下去了。前天追完了這部。是挺甜蜜的,不過沒有像【完】那樣時時刻刻撒糖。因此,我還好。哈哈!
現在在練者片尾曲,【Your Smile】,有點難度。我的聲音不是屬於那種甜美型的,而且音域也有限。不過,我會繼續“努力”。
Anyway,看了⋯⋯忘了第幾集,才發現這不就是那部金城武的戲【喜歡你】的連續劇篇嗎?!我還真遲鈍!
以前我也曾想過和大叔談戀愛。這麼一來,應該會比較穩重吧。後來發現,現實生活裡,油膩的大叔比較多,而且過著得過且過的日子⋯⋯太恐怖了。
一些美好的幻想,靠小說、戲劇去維持就夠了。:D
會選擇開這部劇,是因為女主。唱歌不錯,會彈古箏,而且臉圓圓的、可愛的。她和周冬雨演繹的這個顧勝男角色,各有特色。男主嘛,當然金城武最帥。哈哈!
我剛剛開了個小差。。。這篇應該要寫像個觀後感之類的,但是⋯⋯
算了。就這樣~
星期日, 6月 13, 2021
聼JJ唱 | 確定愛我
最近,想起n年前的那段孽緣。我竟然用孽緣來形容它。哈哈!
我呢,走到了盡頭了,放棄了,離開了,別了,也沒想再見了。
不過呢,最近在嘗試寫歌詞,只好回味一些以前的故事。
至於曾經愛我不,也不重要了。反正都是假的。
嗯,只想發泄情緒一下下。
星期五, 6月 11, 2021
因爲愛情?
剛才工作很晚,和同事聊了一下。
大概知道關於她和他。我有疑問,也向她發出了我的問題。既然看不到未來會怎樣,連想象都想不出來有天會不會結婚,爲什麽還會在一起?
她沒怎麽回答我的疑問。只說,彼此在一起的時間還短,然後列出一些現實的條件,連同居都會是個問題。
我不敢繼續問下去。我只説,自己單身太久了,想象不到這樣的關係。她或許對我的現狀也有疑問吧?
我在想,他們倆還是選擇繼續在一起,是因爲愛情嗎?還是將就?是因爲寂寞嗎?還是只能這樣?
這樣的愛情,看不到未來的愛情,會長久嗎?
我曾經喜歡的那個人啊,他說因爲放不下另一個人,所以選擇不繼續和我在一起。轉眼分手后,他卻離開了。我耿耿於懷這麽多年,他卻早結新歡了。我當時,真恨他,恨了很多年。說愛我,卻離開我。現在回想,我被騗了也不是第一次,卻還相信別人說的話是承諾。真可笑。後來,也沒有騙子出現在身邊了。是件好事吧?
我想,如果這個世界,多點認真的人,少點騙子,應該會好一些。我這個同事,會選擇繼續在一起,我相信多多少少都是因爲愛情。沒有愛情,怎會在看不到未來之下,還是選擇繼續牽對方的手,一起走下去呢?
我?繼續守著自己的心吧。
大概知道關於她和他。我有疑問,也向她發出了我的問題。既然看不到未來會怎樣,連想象都想不出來有天會不會結婚,爲什麽還會在一起?
她沒怎麽回答我的疑問。只說,彼此在一起的時間還短,然後列出一些現實的條件,連同居都會是個問題。
我不敢繼續問下去。我只説,自己單身太久了,想象不到這樣的關係。她或許對我的現狀也有疑問吧?
我在想,他們倆還是選擇繼續在一起,是因爲愛情嗎?還是將就?是因爲寂寞嗎?還是只能這樣?
這樣的愛情,看不到未來的愛情,會長久嗎?
我曾經喜歡的那個人啊,他說因爲放不下另一個人,所以選擇不繼續和我在一起。轉眼分手后,他卻離開了。我耿耿於懷這麽多年,他卻早結新歡了。我當時,真恨他,恨了很多年。說愛我,卻離開我。現在回想,我被騗了也不是第一次,卻還相信別人說的話是承諾。真可笑。後來,也沒有騙子出現在身邊了。是件好事吧?
我想,如果這個世界,多點認真的人,少點騙子,應該會好一些。我這個同事,會選擇繼續在一起,我相信多多少少都是因爲愛情。沒有愛情,怎會在看不到未來之下,還是選擇繼續牽對方的手,一起走下去呢?
我?繼續守著自己的心吧。
星期二, 6月 08, 2021
信情札記 | 把自己藏起來
周末的時候,和一班舊同學來了個網上聚會。我其實有抗拒、害怕的心情。
我喜歡兩、三個人,好好的交流,要話投機的。
面對一大半的,一些已經沒聯絡了,一些關係尷尬,一些在臉書上po文會篩選觀衆讓我知道有po文我卻看不到的……顯~
覺得時間很漫長。到了後面,我是一面學日文,一面聼他們聊了。一些也開始沒露臉了?在私聊嗎?我也不曉得。
隔天,在寫手賬的時候,看到了那個小女孩的圖案,讓我聯想到“把自己藏起來”,而寫下了那一頁。
昨夜,聽到這音樂的時候,讓我聯想到這一篇,於是想說把它們弄成一篇【信情札記】吧。嗯,這影片就是這樣來的。
最近迷上一個叫Abao的YouTuber。喜歡他的一起學習影片。想學他的一些攝影手法。不過,我在一個不像鄉村的新村裏,沒什麽好看的景色供我好好練習。連這張桌子,也是大概清開一些雜物,才有個看起來比較“乾净”的空間來拍攝。
我要住在城市裏!我要住在高樓裏!我要燈光燦爛,看起來熱鬧的晚上!
好吧,我繼續在鄉下幻想城市生活吧~
星期六, 6月 05, 2021
信情札記 | 那一天,我一個人
最近瘋狂的弄影片,上傳到YouTube、Facebook。
在進行中的有【有一本書】系列。【J房之寳】弄了十二期,暫停。
昨天,看了以前用手機、相機錄製的影片,就想說,要不看看能弄個什麽樣的影片出來。一來可以提升下次拍攝的技巧什麽的,二來可以提升自己製作影片的水平。
差不多半夜的時候,母親從睡房出來,瞪了我一眼,於是只好乖乖的關上電腦,睡覺去。當時,初稿和文案都差不多弄好了。在床上翻來覆去,這個新的系列,要給它取個什麽名字?要在主要頻道,還是第二頻道發佈?最後,決定了叫它做【信情札記】后,就做決定要在主要頻道發佈了。(笑~)
在翻看以前的影片,又重新發現第一次用Canon M10時,在冰島的時候,有個原本設定,它會把我拍照的前幾秒,錄下影片,然後有一聲咔嚓,照片生成的全自動形成的影片。當時,我並不知道有這個功能。當我發現的時候,以爲它沒把我要的照片弄成“照片”,心裏都涼了起來。後來發現兩者都有,才卸下心裏的壓抑。不過,因爲會在冰島待一段很長的時間,擔心帶去的記憶卡不夠,因此趕快找出那設定,關閉這功能。不過,也幸好當時沒刪除這些檔案,因此我可以直接用它,不用自己去想效果什麽的。哈哈!
話説回來,昨晚,最後選了這個影片做開始,因爲……覺得這個應該是最簡單的,加上心裏有所感觸,於是很快的就寫好文案。
有想過用聲音去帶出這些文字,然而……嗯,嫌麻煩。還沒試過把我的Scarlet 2i2連接去這部視窗系統的電腦,沒摸索過。下次吧?!
嗯。2019年4月5日。我一個人。你沒在。
星期日, 5月 30, 2021
聼JJ唱 | 完美先生和差不多小姐
既然喜歡這部電視劇,當然它的OST也很不錯的。這兩個星期都在練這首歌。這應該是我最快練成的一首歌之一!
在YouTube的推薦下,我聼了幾首花粥的歌。喜歡這些簡單但又好聽的歌。
至於下個星期要練什麽歌,要錄什麽歌,還沒想好的說……
星期日, 5月 23, 2021
《完美先生和差不多小姐》
太久沒寫部落格了,可是,今天真忍不住想分享這部戯。
原本,【微微一笑很傾城】是我心中最最最甜的連續劇。上個星期我才重看了一遍,然後被YouTube推薦了這部【完美先生和差不多小姐】。其實注意到這部戯有好一些日子了。都沒怎麽想點進去看。這個星期看完了這部劇,【微】可以排第二了。哈哈!
看了這部劇,我的感觸是,跟高智商的人談戀愛比較簡單。他會去學習如何處理感情。雖然可能有時候會難跟上他的頻道,不過,好過通過取巧、“善意”的謊言來“應付”愛情得好。嗯,像章教授那樣的對象,太吸引人了~
片尾曲也很到位。希望這樣輕鬆的歌。應該會練起來,然後上傳去【聼JJ唱】的系列吧?!
這是去年九月尾的影片,我在今年五月才看完,其實也還挺跟上潮流吧?!哈哈!
星期六, 3月 06, 2021
淺情人不知 (1)
那天,我走進blueDiaries的時候,木藍正在唱這首歌。聽她唱的時候,某些感覺觸動了我的心弦。我走到吧台,和Mike還有Jack打了個招呼。平日,我是不來這裡的。我只在週末的時候,才會出現在這裡。木藍是我只聽過在這裡駐唱的名字,這是我第一次聽她唱歌。雖然吉他和歌聲不怎麼樣,但是⋯⋯嗯,我無法解釋那種感覺。
blueDiaries在平日挺冷清的,只有週末的時候才會熱鬧起來。木藍從不拿週末的班,儘管週末的工資比較高。不過,也好,如果她在週末唱,可能會把blueDiaries唱出冷清來,這生意就難維持了。
剛才遇見了曉芋。發現藏在心裏的那段過去,原來已經翻篇了。連她過得好不好,我都沒一絲渴望想知道了。匆匆的寒暄,然後我就來到這裡了。
木藍很快就放工了,也走向吧台,向Mike要了杯啤酒,咕嚕咕嚕的喝完。Mike他們想向木藍介紹我,我打了個眼色,不必介紹我的身份。
“這是你們的朋友啊?”她微笑地看著我,眼睛好像星星般的閃閃發亮。“你好!我叫木藍。”
“納斯。”
“你好酷噢!”說完,她又向Mike要多一杯啤酒。
“你很能喝酒?”
“我?哈哈!不行,我快醉了⋯⋯”
“她偶爾會這樣喝酒,然後就醉倒,然後跟我們回家!”Mike解釋。
也是,以Mike和Jack的關係,她一定很安心地被他們帶回家。
“Mike,我跟你說⋯⋯今天,嫂子又給臉色我看。我今天不要回家。今晚我就過去你們那裡⋯⋯”然後就開始一些語無倫次的話語,然後就醉醺醺了。剛好我就在身邊,她就醉倒在我懷裏。
“今天我帶她回去吧。”我也不曉得怎麼了,就想帶她回家。
“呃⋯⋯老大,會不會嚇到她?”
“你們不想過你們的二人世界?”
Jack拉了Mike的衣角,然後就同意了。
我把她抱起來,由Jack幫忙,把她弄到車裏,然後就回家了。她還真毫無戒心的睡著了。我把她安置在客房裡。查看了公司電郵箱,洗了澡,就睡了。
隔天早上,我給木藍弄了簡單的早餐。她睡醒後,被陌生的環境弄得懵逼,然後很快就處於安然狀態,吃我弄的早餐。
“謝謝你啊!一定是Jack磨你,要你帶我回家的!他丫,總說我打擾他們。也不想想我是怎麼幫他們度過難關的⋯⋯”
“難關?”
她咬著麵包,想著要怎麼向我解釋“⋯⋯呃,沒什麼。”悶悶的咀嚼麵包。
“你住哪裡?我送你回家。”
“噢!我就住在Setia Alam。不過,你載我回blueDiaries就行了。我的車停在那裡。”
“嗯。”
“死Jack,幸好我有放換洗的衣服在車上。待會可以直接去上班。”她小聲嘀咕著,被我聽到了。
“你在他們那裡有換洗的衣服?”
“噢⋯⋯呃⋯⋯是上次⋯⋯呃,我偶爾會在他們家過夜,所以在那裡有間房。”
“嗯。”
就這樣,我在平日去blueDiaries多幾次後,我家也有她的換洗衣服,那客房也似乎變成了她的房間。她其實也不常在我家過夜,不過一個月有大概那麼的一、兩次。偶爾,我不在的時候,也去Mike那裡過夜。
嗯,這才是我原先想出來的故事,當我開始錄這首歌的時候。不過,就是不想寫在blueDiaries那裡。因為,那裡有一些“固定”的角色了,還不想更換。不過,就變成要寫不一樣的故事時,有一定的constraint。
這個⋯⋯看看我是否能寫出一個“霸道總裁”故事來。:P
星期一, 2月 01, 2021
光影間|也許 - 在MD紙上用墨汁
終於在這MD notebook本子上用了墨汁。我一直都不敢在任何本子裡用上墨汁。擔心會透到n頁去。然而,上次在這本子上用水彩花了朵乾花後,覺得它可能可以hold住墨汁,因此心也變得“強大”起來,期待在這本子嘗試。
正巧,星期六那天練了春聯,因此就興起這樣的念頭。當時,要在手帳裡寫些什麼,是完全沒有概念的。不過,就突然冒起“也許”兩個字。因此,就用app找來米芾的字帖,用喵喵機列印出來,然後跟著寫。
字體寫得不怎麼樣。在筆尖和字的空間的控制,還是有待改善。
由於這是一時興起的念頭,因此,寫了“也許”兩個字後,我停頓了好一陣子。這個影片都是以300%速度前進的。中間剪接了一些,然後最後幾秒才是“現時”的。:D
我還沒有給《光影間》弄個封面,因此就暫時用黑色封面吧!
星期三, 1月 27, 2021
聽JJ唱:So far away
想錄這首歌,真的很久很久了。一直都沒有錄過。以前想像是一面聽著Roxette的版本,一面跟著彈唱。最終,還是只是有時想起的時候,就播他們的歌,然後⋯⋯練唱。
在做上個星期的計劃的時候,就把這首歌放進計劃欄裡,這次一定要錄這首歌了。沒有之前想像的錄音方式,不過自己也錄了好幾遍。然後在幾刷之間,選了這個。
Roxette在我中學時期佔有一席之位。他們的卡帶,現在回想起來,還真貴!哈!我覺得Per Gessle把他們的歌都寫得很不錯,他的聲音也很特別。不過,我比較著迷於Marie Fredriksson的聲音。在George Michael過世後,另一個歌手的去世讓我有種惋惜的心情就是Marie了。
說真的,Marie把這首歌唱得夠傷感。那是我無法模仿到的。這首歌的歌詞其實很簡單,而且很多重複,不過卻可以把那傷感慢慢的鋪陳起來。這也是我希望可以學習到的。
星期日, 1月 10, 2021
My 2020 Annual Review
I kept refreshing James Clear's annual review page, he has not published his 2020 review yet. However, I already done my 2020 review (in numbers) and already planned, and started my plans for 2021. So, I better not to drag this any longer.
This was from my 2019 looking forward section.
My tech thoughts, my "The Magical Adventures of A Single Life", the yet to complete 有關愛情的故事手帳, swimming, Japanese, French, Security Testing related, Open Stack, new drawing/writing journal 2020心情雜記, another 25 books, 信情故事, Inktober, online courses, more TED talk summary... I hope this is not too much for me.
Oh my! I only done half-way for OpenStack, completed 2020心情雜記, only 7 books, Inktober and 13 TED talk summary. The rest... dropped, failed. This is so demotivating... This is not something I wanted to start with myself review... But this is reality.
Anyway, let's go to my yearly summary in number first.
I did...
Based on the highlighted accomplishment, I gave myself a 70% score for 2020.
Let's continue with the normal yearly review routine.
Learning
Well, I don't put course here, as I'd like to put that in "What didn't go well" category. However, I did quite some random learning. Re-learn/pick up new technology terms, attended quite a number of webinars from RedHat/AWS/VMWare/... and many more. I don't remember. At one point, I stopped, as I think it's enough for my fish brain for the year. I also manage to register for a free Azure foundation course, and passed the exam.
Readings
I read 7 books. Not much. Due to the pandemic, I read the books from my bookshelves, both online and offline. I also read 18 novels, mostly online. The numbers didn't reach what I expected. When I did my review, and looked at the books in the storeroom, which currently is also my working/study/journaling/recording room, I got motivated to read those books, then give them away or sell them away. :D
Job
I finally get to work from home! This save my time, A LOT! Last year, I sent out an email to request for feedback, I got quite a handful replies. The feedbacks are mostly motivating. I also had a mentor, who chit chat with me, and share me her experience. She also convinced me that, influencing skill is not something to be trained overnight, I'll just do my part, and eventually the result will come. This makes me feel less stressed. I also started to have regular 1:1 with my manager, and found out he is actually ready to help us, we just need to ask for it. End of last year, I am taking over the planner role in my team. I believe this is a recognition on my planning and time/priority management skills.
Trips
Yes, it's pandemic, this shouldn't be mentioned at all. But alas, I did make it to Krabi early of the year! I went to Penang and Perak before MCO in March. I also manage to brought my mum to Zoo Negara when MCO ended in July. 1 oversea trip, and 3 local trip.
KDB
I can't put blogging in this category, but I did a 2-month blogging, 1 month on technology terminology introduction, and 1 month on 山海經's god and goddess introduction.
Drawings
I started to draw a lot! I was able to count how many drawings I did in 2019, but don't think I want to count it for 2020. I did one-month daily drawing and upload to YouTube, completed the Inktover, tried to sketch with pencil and charcoal, tried gouache colour. I am quite satisfied with the result. I also manage to attend an oil-painting class, right before the MCO!
Writings
I completed a book in size of A6, trying to write 散文/小語/poem. I also did 54 30" writings, which I aimed for only 52. This is as a result of my one-month on the daily writing challenge that I gave myself. The 52 was supposed to be a weekly expectation, and I manage to make up to the number by having a one-month challenge. :D
Courses
I didn't do a single IDF class this year, wasted my one year subscription, and I quit. I also quite SimplyPiano at the end of the year. During this pandemic, I moved back to my parents' place, didn't have my piano with me. I lost the momentum, so I ended my subscription. Another one year subscription fee wasted.
My RHOSP course, I didn't manage to finish it within 3 months. I blamed the lab disruption at the end of last 2 weeks. Following my momentum, I should be able to complete on time... Later, they extended the lab only after 1 month dealing with a few departments in RH, which quite demotivating. Later, I got a free course from the institute, and could choose any course from RH. At the end of the day, it's actually just for me to have another 3 months virtual class on the same course.一場歡喜一場空。 As a result, I didn't have enough "push" to complete the RHOSP course. This course is to be continue in 2021.
Blogging
I should blog more, since I am working from home. I calculated, I had 358 blog posts last year. It's not even 1 post a day. I started a new blog in end of 2019, and expected to write it weekly. I stopped after the 5th post. "The Magical Adventures of A Single Life" failed. :( I also didn't write much travel blog post, that I have piled up since 2009! I didn't even finish the writing for my Iceland trip.
Song writing
This was something that I'd like to focus on last year. Yes, blame on the pandemic again. I didn't have my favourite guitar with me, and the organ just out of order when I finally get my momentum want to work with my organ for this! Now that I have my Johnson and the keyboard with me now, I should work this out in 2021!
Photography
Though I took quite a number of photos, and did share in my photo-blog, but it's not up to my expectation. Like blogging, I should have done more. I watched a live stream from Canon end of last year, the topic was on photography project. This is something I should try, but no in my 2021 plan. Let's see how it goes in 2021.
Workouts/Meditation
I grouped these 2 together. At the beginning of MCO, I still do my regular workout. ~15 minutes in the morning. Based on my habit tracker, I just did a total of 50 workout through out the year! This number shows that I am not discipline enough! Gotta fix this in 2021. (I haven't started any workout this year....) I didn't did much meditation in 2020 as well. This is continue to be in my habit tracking list... I hope I can squeeze some time for these.
Languages learning
Last year, I set a target to learn 1000 Japanese words, and 1000 French words. I also wanted to write in Japanese and French, each set to 26 articles. This failed badly. I had a TN book on Japanese words. I think the list didn't go even up to 200 words.
Letting go
I start to apply some minimalism concept in my life. Something that are cluttered in the room, or in my mind, I started to let it go. I have get rid of some stuffs from the past, and get some space in the store room for me to work. Later, the space is getting larger as time goes by. From a space for me to sit, with one laptop, now I can have both my personal and working laptop turned on, side by side. I also have my keyboard and recording equipments in the same store room. A designated table for journaling at the window side is also made available now. The store room never had the windows open at all, and now I have one window can be opened for a better air circulation in the room!
Be confident
At one point, when I had 1-1 with my manager, I lost my confident. He reminded me, why I failed to convince other on my solutions, though I thinkn my solutions are the best, is due to I am lack of confidence. If I am confident enough, I'll find way to win their support, and not just give up. He got a point. All this while, I blamed on my communication skills, and maybe my interpersonal skills. However, my mentor did encourage me. After I put myself together again, I know I should move on. In the past, I didn't get my audience to understand my background, and I set my own imaginations that they don't want to understand the idea. Now, I know I should think from the audience perspective, and communicate/present based on their perspective. This should be a 2-way communication, the way I did was just a 1-way channel. After realizing this, I gain my positive energy again.
On the other hand, I didn't have much confidence in my drawing as well. The one-month daily challenge to draw and post to YouTube channel, some how helped me to gain more confident. I managed to be confident enough to share some in my FB to my friends.
I also started j房之寶to introduce what's in my room. Did my narration in the video, as I envy how the YouTubers that I followed able to do. It's still quite awkward, but I think it's improving.
Be more realistic
I had too many plans. I strongly believe, if there's a will, there'll be ways. However, I think sometime I pushed myself too hard. I wanted to be excel at my work, learn as much as possible, read as much books as possible, draw everyday, write everyday, blog everyday, write a song every month, complete my novel writing, complete my travel blogs, learn new languages.... and the list goes on.
I stopped the IDF/SimplyPiano subscription, as I know they are no longer my priority. I also stopped the webinar registrations, when I realized I have something else that I wanted to work on, compare to keep myself to be up to date on the technology.
I get rid of quite a number of the books I got during my Uni time, such as circuits, electronics and more. I know I won't revisit them again. Never, ever.
I also realize, fancy artistic journaling to be incorporate in my daily life's journal or planner is not realistic. I am best with vertical weekly timelined spread, that's why I am getting one again for 2021.
For this year, I allocated 15 minutes in the morning for Japanese. By end of the year, I should be able to understand YouTube clips in Japanese.
For social media posting, I am focusing on 聽JJ唱, J房之寶series, and song writing. Yes, social media became one of my focus now.
I planned to read 24 books this year.
As for course, I'll focus on completing RHOSP, then focus on Pentest related ccourse only.
My blogging target also set to a minimal number, which would mainly focus on my travel blog, and write about the books I read.
I also allocated 15 minutes at night for practicing Chinese character writing. My space sense in art needs a boost, and this should help. :D
With this plan, my time is actually fully (if not overly) booked. I have no idea how to squeeze some time for drawing and normal blogging, and also my photography project(s). Let's see how it goes. :)
頑張ってくだいさい!
I hope I got the Japanese words right. :D
This was from my 2019 looking forward section.
My tech thoughts, my "The Magical Adventures of A Single Life", the yet to complete 有關愛情的故事手帳, swimming, Japanese, French, Security Testing related, Open Stack, new drawing/writing journal 2020心情雜記, another 25 books, 信情故事, Inktober, online courses, more TED talk summary... I hope this is not too much for me.
Oh my! I only done half-way for OpenStack, completed 2020心情雜記, only 7 books, Inktober and 13 TED talk summary. The rest... dropped, failed. This is so demotivating... This is not something I wanted to start with myself review... But this is reality.
Anyway, let's go to my yearly summary in number first.
I did...
- 61 Video clips, on YouTube and Facebook
- 7 books
- 8 movies
- 8 dramas
- 18 novels
- 50 workouts
- 358 blog post
- 54 30" writing
- 13 TED summary
- 39 tech articles
- 30 山海經提及的神仙介紹
- 3 local trips
- 1 oversea trip
- 1 oil painting class
- 5.5 courses
- n webinars
- 2 art journal books
Based on the highlighted accomplishment, I gave myself a 70% score for 2020.
Let's continue with the normal yearly review routine.
What went well?
Learning
Well, I don't put course here, as I'd like to put that in "What didn't go well" category. However, I did quite some random learning. Re-learn/pick up new technology terms, attended quite a number of webinars from RedHat/AWS/VMWare/... and many more. I don't remember. At one point, I stopped, as I think it's enough for my fish brain for the year. I also manage to register for a free Azure foundation course, and passed the exam.
Readings
I read 7 books. Not much. Due to the pandemic, I read the books from my bookshelves, both online and offline. I also read 18 novels, mostly online. The numbers didn't reach what I expected. When I did my review, and looked at the books in the storeroom, which currently is also my working/study/journaling/recording room, I got motivated to read those books, then give them away or sell them away. :D
Job
I finally get to work from home! This save my time, A LOT! Last year, I sent out an email to request for feedback, I got quite a handful replies. The feedbacks are mostly motivating. I also had a mentor, who chit chat with me, and share me her experience. She also convinced me that, influencing skill is not something to be trained overnight, I'll just do my part, and eventually the result will come. This makes me feel less stressed. I also started to have regular 1:1 with my manager, and found out he is actually ready to help us, we just need to ask for it. End of last year, I am taking over the planner role in my team. I believe this is a recognition on my planning and time/priority management skills.
Trips
Yes, it's pandemic, this shouldn't be mentioned at all. But alas, I did make it to Krabi early of the year! I went to Penang and Perak before MCO in March. I also manage to brought my mum to Zoo Negara when MCO ended in July. 1 oversea trip, and 3 local trip.
KDB
I can't put blogging in this category, but I did a 2-month blogging, 1 month on technology terminology introduction, and 1 month on 山海經's god and goddess introduction.
Drawings
I started to draw a lot! I was able to count how many drawings I did in 2019, but don't think I want to count it for 2020. I did one-month daily drawing and upload to YouTube, completed the Inktover, tried to sketch with pencil and charcoal, tried gouache colour. I am quite satisfied with the result. I also manage to attend an oil-painting class, right before the MCO!
Writings
I completed a book in size of A6, trying to write 散文/小語/poem. I also did 54 30" writings, which I aimed for only 52. This is as a result of my one-month on the daily writing challenge that I gave myself. The 52 was supposed to be a weekly expectation, and I manage to make up to the number by having a one-month challenge. :D
What didn't go so well this year?
Courses
I didn't do a single IDF class this year, wasted my one year subscription, and I quit. I also quite SimplyPiano at the end of the year. During this pandemic, I moved back to my parents' place, didn't have my piano with me. I lost the momentum, so I ended my subscription. Another one year subscription fee wasted.
My RHOSP course, I didn't manage to finish it within 3 months. I blamed the lab disruption at the end of last 2 weeks. Following my momentum, I should be able to complete on time... Later, they extended the lab only after 1 month dealing with a few departments in RH, which quite demotivating. Later, I got a free course from the institute, and could choose any course from RH. At the end of the day, it's actually just for me to have another 3 months virtual class on the same course.一場歡喜一場空。 As a result, I didn't have enough "push" to complete the RHOSP course. This course is to be continue in 2021.
Blogging
I should blog more, since I am working from home. I calculated, I had 358 blog posts last year. It's not even 1 post a day. I started a new blog in end of 2019, and expected to write it weekly. I stopped after the 5th post. "The Magical Adventures of A Single Life" failed. :( I also didn't write much travel blog post, that I have piled up since 2009! I didn't even finish the writing for my Iceland trip.
Song writing
This was something that I'd like to focus on last year. Yes, blame on the pandemic again. I didn't have my favourite guitar with me, and the organ just out of order when I finally get my momentum want to work with my organ for this! Now that I have my Johnson and the keyboard with me now, I should work this out in 2021!
Photography
Though I took quite a number of photos, and did share in my photo-blog, but it's not up to my expectation. Like blogging, I should have done more. I watched a live stream from Canon end of last year, the topic was on photography project. This is something I should try, but no in my 2021 plan. Let's see how it goes in 2021.
Workouts/Meditation
I grouped these 2 together. At the beginning of MCO, I still do my regular workout. ~15 minutes in the morning. Based on my habit tracker, I just did a total of 50 workout through out the year! This number shows that I am not discipline enough! Gotta fix this in 2021. (I haven't started any workout this year....) I didn't did much meditation in 2020 as well. This is continue to be in my habit tracking list... I hope I can squeeze some time for these.
Languages learning
Last year, I set a target to learn 1000 Japanese words, and 1000 French words. I also wanted to write in Japanese and French, each set to 26 articles. This failed badly. I had a TN book on Japanese words. I think the list didn't go even up to 200 words.
What did I learn?
Letting go
I start to apply some minimalism concept in my life. Something that are cluttered in the room, or in my mind, I started to let it go. I have get rid of some stuffs from the past, and get some space in the store room for me to work. Later, the space is getting larger as time goes by. From a space for me to sit, with one laptop, now I can have both my personal and working laptop turned on, side by side. I also have my keyboard and recording equipments in the same store room. A designated table for journaling at the window side is also made available now. The store room never had the windows open at all, and now I have one window can be opened for a better air circulation in the room!
Be confident
At one point, when I had 1-1 with my manager, I lost my confident. He reminded me, why I failed to convince other on my solutions, though I thinkn my solutions are the best, is due to I am lack of confidence. If I am confident enough, I'll find way to win their support, and not just give up. He got a point. All this while, I blamed on my communication skills, and maybe my interpersonal skills. However, my mentor did encourage me. After I put myself together again, I know I should move on. In the past, I didn't get my audience to understand my background, and I set my own imaginations that they don't want to understand the idea. Now, I know I should think from the audience perspective, and communicate/present based on their perspective. This should be a 2-way communication, the way I did was just a 1-way channel. After realizing this, I gain my positive energy again.
On the other hand, I didn't have much confidence in my drawing as well. The one-month daily challenge to draw and post to YouTube channel, some how helped me to gain more confident. I managed to be confident enough to share some in my FB to my friends.
I also started j房之寶to introduce what's in my room. Did my narration in the video, as I envy how the YouTubers that I followed able to do. It's still quite awkward, but I think it's improving.
Be more realistic
I had too many plans. I strongly believe, if there's a will, there'll be ways. However, I think sometime I pushed myself too hard. I wanted to be excel at my work, learn as much as possible, read as much books as possible, draw everyday, write everyday, blog everyday, write a song every month, complete my novel writing, complete my travel blogs, learn new languages.... and the list goes on.
I stopped the IDF/SimplyPiano subscription, as I know they are no longer my priority. I also stopped the webinar registrations, when I realized I have something else that I wanted to work on, compare to keep myself to be up to date on the technology.
I get rid of quite a number of the books I got during my Uni time, such as circuits, electronics and more. I know I won't revisit them again. Never, ever.
I also realize, fancy artistic journaling to be incorporate in my daily life's journal or planner is not realistic. I am best with vertical weekly timelined spread, that's why I am getting one again for 2021.
What I am looking forward?
For this year, I allocated 15 minutes in the morning for Japanese. By end of the year, I should be able to understand YouTube clips in Japanese.
For social media posting, I am focusing on 聽JJ唱, J房之寶series, and song writing. Yes, social media became one of my focus now.
I planned to read 24 books this year.
As for course, I'll focus on completing RHOSP, then focus on Pentest related ccourse only.
My blogging target also set to a minimal number, which would mainly focus on my travel blog, and write about the books I read.
I also allocated 15 minutes at night for practicing Chinese character writing. My space sense in art needs a boost, and this should help. :D
With this plan, my time is actually fully (if not overly) booked. I have no idea how to squeeze some time for drawing and normal blogging, and also my photography project(s). Let's see how it goes. :)
頑張ってくだいさい!
I hope I got the Japanese words right. :D
星期一, 1月 04, 2021
J房之寶:Himi jelly gouache
我想做關於文具影片很久了。大多數是在看別人的影片,還有journaling的影片。由於我收藏了很多很多文具,有些想要贈送出去,一些可以賣的就賣吧?!因此,就弄了這個FB公共主頁。名字呢,也想了許久,最後鎖定「戀戀物語」。原本是想放戀物狂的,不過,戀物狂的意思⋯⋯那⋯⋯我沒那心理病。呵呵~
這盒水粉已經買了很久。當天開箱畫了兩幅畫,其實至今就沒怎麼動了。前幾天在去年的Inktober本子裡畫了十年日記本,就用了這盒顏色。它的味道⋯⋯有點臭。哈哈!不過,我會繼續用這顏色的。
弄了個縮時畫畫影片,畫出來的時候,覺得挺糟糕的,後來再看那幅畫,還有看了自己的錄影後,覺得還不賴啊!嘻嘻~
這影片,覺得自己剪接得還不錯,多虧了Lauren Duski的背景音樂!
聽JJ唱:一場游戲一場夢
昨晚心血來潮,弄了個cover。
。。。
那是我在上個月27弄的,接下來是想寫有關copyright claim的事,移到了KDB那裡做“教學”,然後,這篇就這樣被擱置了。
會想要錄這首歌,是因為當時收拾這200x年的“收藏”。當時看到一張去看王傑演唱會的賬單。嗯,就只有賬單,演唱會有沒有票根,我就不記得了。上網想搜一下那個演唱會的資料,搜尋結果只顯示當時有那場演唱會。哈哈!後來在YouTube看到有人po了一小段這首歌,於是決定要錄它。我的歌單裡,其實都(還)沒有安排這首歌。
我在鍵盤上找了好久的歌曲style,都覺得和這首歌格格不入,有想要換去彈吉他了。我太久沒彈吉他,連基本的彈法都無法掌握,沒達到自己的基本要求。於是,又跑回鍵盤上繼續摸索。突然,就覺得這個還真不錯。嘗試唱了幾回,自己也覺得滿意,就錄了。
家人說,這首歌唱得很平淡。我說,就是要這樣的感覺。哈哈!
不過,這次因為一直反覆的唱,還有抄歌詞,我才發現自己一直所了解的歌詞,都是錯的。我這。。二、三十年以來,我一直以為它寫的是關於遊戲人間的人,不過⋯⋯這次注意到了這一句:“在兩個人的世界裡不該有你。”
這,不就是說小三嗎?!
你,也剛驚覺嗎?
。。。
那是我在上個月27弄的,接下來是想寫有關copyright claim的事,移到了KDB那裡做“教學”,然後,這篇就這樣被擱置了。
會想要錄這首歌,是因為當時收拾這200x年的“收藏”。當時看到一張去看王傑演唱會的賬單。嗯,就只有賬單,演唱會有沒有票根,我就不記得了。上網想搜一下那個演唱會的資料,搜尋結果只顯示當時有那場演唱會。哈哈!後來在YouTube看到有人po了一小段這首歌,於是決定要錄它。我的歌單裡,其實都(還)沒有安排這首歌。
我在鍵盤上找了好久的歌曲style,都覺得和這首歌格格不入,有想要換去彈吉他了。我太久沒彈吉他,連基本的彈法都無法掌握,沒達到自己的基本要求。於是,又跑回鍵盤上繼續摸索。突然,就覺得這個還真不錯。嘗試唱了幾回,自己也覺得滿意,就錄了。
家人說,這首歌唱得很平淡。我說,就是要這樣的感覺。哈哈!
不過,這次因為一直反覆的唱,還有抄歌詞,我才發現自己一直所了解的歌詞,都是錯的。我這。。二、三十年以來,我一直以為它寫的是關於遊戲人間的人,不過⋯⋯這次注意到了這一句:“在兩個人的世界裡不該有你。”
這,不就是說小三嗎?!
你,也剛驚覺嗎?
星期日, 1月 03, 2021
聽JJ唱 - Kiss me goodbye
許久沒有寫部落格了。其實有很多東西寫,很多東西想分享,不過⋯⋯就是時間不對,提不起勁完成一篇文章。不過,既然今天時間還早,我今天也花了大概三個小時看YouTube、三個小時看書,可以“偷閒”寫部落格吧。
這是昨晚錄好的。第三個版本。第一個版本是鍵盤原key的,C大調,然後轉去F大調吧?我其實觀察了好一陣子,才發現轉調的地方。Verse都是用C調的,chorus那裡,就轉了F調;接下來在轉回C調進verse 2,然後F調chorus and ending。我一直只發現從chorus去verse 2有轉調而已。今天看了好和弦介紹1-2-4-5的轉調方式,1-2一個調,然後4-5另一個調,下次寫歌的時候會嘗試嘗試。
這算是我今年的第二支影片。第一支在幾個星期前開張的臉書公共主頁上傳,關於五年、十年日記。嗯,那是一個介紹我的“書房”裡的東西的公共主頁。下次再分享。
話說回來,這首歌錄好後,覺得自己唱得有點吃力,於是降了4歌key,重錄。重錄的成果,讓妹妹聽。她說,你可不可以唱得有層次感一點。我問,那是啥意思啊?她說,可能一開始平靜,然後哀怨,接下來生氣什麼的。我睜大眼睛看著她。停頓後,我深吸一口氣,然後給她聽了第一個版本。我說,把key調高,我才能唱出一點她說的層次感,不過就是不好聽啊~她聽了後,說另一個版本,我也不大能唱好啊。於是,第三版的,就是只是減兩個key。昨晚錄了幾遍後,鄰家的狗又開始吠個不停。唉~我還唱得起勁兒了呢!結果,等了一個小時多重錄的時候,那種感覺又沒了。不過,我決定不做完美主義者,這樣就夠了。噢,還有,原本兩個版本的tempo是78的,我把它加速到86。可能因為這樣,也比較好唱點。哈!
嗯,這次上傳這影片,還是遭到了copyright claim。我file了dispute。
連同n年前用五月天《純真》的編曲來襯托我自己寫的曲子,也一起file dispute。結果,華納很快的駁回我的申請。原想繼續上訴的。不過,我也不是要掙錢啊!更何況,也不多view。就是不爽在我的影片下方植入他們想推的歌的連接。這種情況,目前在我的頻道,就只有華納這麼做。如果只是植入連接去五月天的《純真》,或者顯示用了五月天的《純真》,就好了嘛。我自己也寫啦~
我不曉得是YouTube的系統問題,還是對方的問題,那有關《純真》的dispute reject,是沒有寫原因的。因此,我決定把影片設定成private。
其他的一些有copyright claim的舊影片,我也把它們換去unlisted了。
今年的目標,是弄50個聽JJ唱影片。不過,要頭疼這些copyright東東,還真的不是很開心。雖然說,我從沒想過要從YouTube賺外快,到想想應該可以賺外快,到現在的放棄狀態,我還是不喜歡這些亂亂claim copyright的“集團”。上個星期那個CASH公司的,可以在這裡,How to file copyright dispute in YouTube,讀相關的文章,我把它當作一個“教學”範例。目前還在等著對方“檢閱”status。:P
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