星期三, 4月 29, 2020

Darkness

Write down 20 words that describe darkness.
Now describe darkness without using any of those words.
No cheating.
Darkness too dark?
Choose light instead.

Darkness is black.

It absorbs everything, like a black hole, nothing could come out of it.

Darkness is silence.

It brings calm, like nothing can break its peaceful silence.

Darkness spare the loneliness a space to hold together.

The ugly can hide in the darkness.

Tears can hide in darkness.

Darkness is a good listener.

Darkness is everyone's old friend.

Sometimes darkness allows small little light to decorate it. They called the small little light, stars.

Turn off lights, and darkness will come.

Turn on lights, the darkness will hide.

【农女重生之丞相夫人】

我鮮少說關於網路小說的。看過不少網路小說,大多是打發時間,忘記現實為主要原因。偶爾,也看到一些品質很好的小說。

今天,看完了715萬字的小說。上個星期五開始看的。都是臉書的廣告⋯⋯都怪它⋯⋯結果,這幾天,都很少上網。連我每日的journal routine也都擱置了!

剛開始,以為是寫關於重生的。後來再繼續看下去,我不曉得要怎麼形容這故事。它包含了像inception、輪迴、因果、上古、魔仙等。我大概花了多少時間看完這小說啊?大概算一算,40-50小時吧?!算45小時的話,大概15萬一個小時吧?!我對小說的“速讀”能力,沒猶豫過。一分鐘2.5千字,真有嗎?!那,大概一分中兩章啊~應該不可能吧?!工作天6小時,週末12小時來計算的話,48小時,也差不遠啊!如果讀知識類的書也能這麼快,就好了。

這幾晚睡覺,都在回味著蕭真、韓子然和姒墨之間的錯綜緣分。看到蕭真在祝由术過了三世,已經超出我的想像了。三世緣分,雖然不是真實的,也算足夠了吧?!現實的“第四世”,也不錯吧?!作者,竟然還可以搞出多幾個不同路線(版本)的一世,卻連接得順暢。我真的要給拜了。不過,後面的番外、還有接到上古、魔仙等,寫得有點倉促。以為姒墨番外篇會寫關於故事裡,姒墨在祝由朮營造的世界,不過又不是,有點小失望。故事最終也沒有提到鴻蒙如何對姒墨展出同情,沒讓他魂飛魄散,當他決定放下蕭真的時候。

Anyway,故事整體來說,太棒了。我要禁止自己這樣追小說⋯⋯一個月。太傷神了。

星期四, 4月 23, 2020

自畫像


昨天寫了Stranger後,從貼紙盒裡選出了一張女孩坐在電腦前懊惱的樣子。她像極了我在嘗試寫Stranger的心情。於是,把她變成了自己。臉尖尖的,身體瘦瘦的⋯⋯

靈感這回事,還是得逼自己才能擠出的。不過,懶惰習慣了。有一些規劃、習慣追蹤,還是好的。雖然無法確保100%的執行力,不過,有總比沒有,來得強。至少,自己逼了自己每個星期二寫個20分鐘的英文文章。不過,怎麼就是不想繼續寫我那亞齊王朝的故事呢?!明明已經在腦海裡想了好幾遍故事怎麼繼續下去的⋯⋯是怕寫不出一萬個字就結束嗎?唉~加油吧!


星期二, 4月 21, 2020

Strangers

Imagine a chance encounter.
Perhaps between long-lost friends,
former lovers, estrange family,
mortal enemies.

Avoid anger.
Strived for the unexpected.
Surprise your reader.


As usual, she was sitting at the table, furthest from the entrance, beside the glass windows, sipping coffee, and watching the pedestrians.

He walked in, looking at the menu board at the bar counter, and found his favourite hazelnut chocolate drink is still available. It's been 5 years he left the town. He wasn't sure if things changed. He walked towards the order counter, and turned to see if the table that he used to sit is still available. To his surprise, she was sitting there. He hesitated for a while, and continued to make his way to the counter.

"Hazelnut chocolate, please." He ordered.

He wasn't sure, if it's her, who actually sitting there. It's been years, they have not seen each other. He wasn't sure if he is ready to talk to her again. Maybe, he could start with apology?

Coincidently, she looked at the menu again, thought of probably getting a cake or dessert or something. She saw him. She would like to pretend that he was not there. But she knew, she'll never like to pretend. She drank the dark bitter coffee as if it was plain water, wanted to finish the coffee as fast as she could.

He took a deep breathe, walked towards her, with the hazelnut chocolate in his right hand.

"Hi.. may I?" He gently asked her, if he could sit in front of her.

She take the last sip of the coffee, smiled back, took her hand bag and stood up. "Sure, you can have that seat." She smiled, walked away, and never turned back.

星期二, 4月 14, 2020

Conversation with my dog

You inject someone you know with a truth serum.
You get to ask 10 questions.

Plot twist:
Their respondences are much kinder than you expect them to be.


Hmm...

I have a dog. His name is Dollar. No. It's actually not my dog. It's my brother's dog. It always bark at me when I go near. I am not sure why. When my brother is around, it would quietly wag his tail and walk around him. Now I have the truth serum. I want to know why Dollar behaves that way.

I mixed the serum with his food, and feed him. He barked at me at first, then slowly into the mode of enjoying his food.

Now, Dollar has finished his meal, sitting there, gazing at me.

Good. Now, tell me, do you like me?

Woof~~ Dollar gently .. woofing.

Hmm... looks like you actually like me. Why you bark at me?

Woof woof~ Dollar seems anxious at my question.

Are you explaining why you bark at me?

Woof woof~~ Dollar nodded.

Why? Why you would want to bark at me?

Woof woof woof woof~~~ Dollar came near me, and gave me his right paw. I reluctantly reached out to it. Dollar blinked his eyes and looked at me.

You like my brother?

Woof~ A very firm answer from him.

You... like him more?

A long silence between both of us.

Would you like me more if I hold you like this?

Dollar hesitated a bit, and answered with a soft woof.

What about this? I reached out to his head, and pet his head.

Woof~ Hmm... this round, he seems didn't take any hesitation to answer.

I like you, just... I am not used to with others...

Woof~ woof~ Dollar answered as he understood me.

I'll try to pet you, if you like this... I continued to pet his head.

Woof~~ woof~~ He continued to gently answer me, wagging his tail.

This is the first time, I touch him, literally. For the first time, Dollar didn't bark. Suddenly, I guess I understand why Dollar barked at me.


星期日, 4月 12, 2020

2020 WW15 心情雜記


我不曉得多少人和我一樣,享受在廁所裡的me-time。看到這個貼紙,就想寫關於這件事。:D 也就因為這幾個英文字太難看了,我開始去練圓體字了。


這篇也是因為那貼紙的貪吃樣而寫的。做那個拖鞋印章時,才驚覺,我只有左腳的⋯⋯MCO完了之後,我要買很多很多的clear stamp!


這晚,我記得要早睡的。在寫這晚上的journal的時候,就想,一定要把這“蘭姐的蒸非洲魚”畫出來做紀念。於是,臨睡前弄了這篇。


在網上看了makoccino畫了月亮後,自己也想畫。也從貼紙堆裡找出手牽月亮,於是這篇的主題成了回想以前小時候,發現月亮總是跟著自己的腳步走,有種被守護的感覺。這種想法,覺得很浪漫。不過,因為不是在水彩紙(找借口)畫,於是⋯⋯等下次再畫吧。


我有洗澡要把所有項鍊啊、耳環啊,還有這個手錶脫掉的習慣。這次,把手錶帶扣子弄壞了。:( 這是Mi band 3,第三條錶帶了⋯⋯現在又克制網購中,看來那sleeping tracker要manual track了。。。


忘了用防水筆,於是弄成了這樣⋯⋯嗯,我是YouTube addict。

這個週末,就做了這些。原本計劃的⋯⋯沒有做到⋯⋯好任性啊!肚子餓,找東西吃去。

《恋はつづくよどこまでも》



《戀愛可以持續到天長地久》是這個MCO時期,YouTube推薦的。都是幾分鐘戲裡最甜蜜的片段,看得很不過癮。在YouTube終於找到全集了,不過那畫面⋯⋯可以看的咩?!我不禁想懷疑人生。

最後,等父母都不看電視的時候,在TV Box裡找到了高清版來看!哈!

一開始,點錯了。於是,先看了它的番外篇。番外篇!很搞笑!每集短短的,大概15分鐘。那是上個星期六吧?一口氣把十集的番外篇看完了。

接下來,就慢慢地看這日劇主篇了。就是喜歡這樣甜甜蜜蜜的故事,脫離現實也不打緊,就要這樣輕鬆、勵志的。:D

《戀上純喫茶》

今天開始看MCO以來的第二套日劇。



也不懂這是日劇、廣告、還是小品。不過,覺得不錯。真想去旅行,然後去這劇裡的餐廳。

TV box只有兩集,YouTube裡只有找到一集~現在,看樣子,這日劇挺新的,共有8集。期待-ing~

星期二, 4月 07, 2020

I didn't blown up

Ops, you locked yourself out.
The BIG problem is, you are... what?!
Drunk? Naked? Sleepwalking?

Some real comedies ensues,
and you are the star of the show.


Another "huh?" from me...

During this MCO period, how to lock myself out wor? :|

OK, I'll try anyway.

I wasn't drunk, naked or sleepwalking. I drove from hometown to my place, after more than a month of MCO. As I reached home, getting my excitement to tone down to get into my house, I found out that I left my key at my parents' place. I could feel my temper start to roar. I missed my bed, my stationeries, my everything here so badly. I bet the plant at my kitchen is dead. It was so beautifully grown. Now, with the stocks and stuffs in my car, that I brought from my home town, I need to drove them back for another hour, get my keys, and come back again for another hour, before I could enter my house!

I don't know if I would go speeding. One thing for sure is, I won't want to get any tickets on this. I better calm myself down first, before I make my move. What I can I do? Oh! I have not taken any fast food for more than a month. Probably I should just drive to the McDonalds nearby, and get something to eat first. Oh yeah! The frozen Coke. Probably that drink can make me calm down a lot!

So, I just drove to McDonald, and did a drive through. I can't leave my stuffs in the car, unattended...

OK, I didn't make it to the star of the show. But I managed to calm myself down, before blown up.

星期六, 4月 04, 2020

4月初的手帳&在身邊的一些素材

今天,根據計劃,是繼續學Flutter的。還有,弄一幅水彩畫。

不過,昨晚開始弄了四月的心情雜記封面,就一發不可收拾地想繼續“玩”下去。

首三個月,就只是簡單地貼上月份的貼紙,作為月份的封面。極簡風嗎~不過,就是只把三月份的貼紙帶在身邊⋯⋯MCO又延長,於是⋯⋯


這個⋯⋯那個彩色點點,好像弄得太複雜了。還有,說要練習圓體字,都現在都沒開始練呢。暫時就這樣吧。


這是第一次嘗試wet on wet在這紙質上。效果好像還不錯。那個「信」字,是嘗試學背景布的那個「信」字寫的。


花的姿態。這張開始,比較像自己想要弄的「心情雜記」的樣子。三月的,大部份是因為得畫什麼、寫什麼而完成的⋯⋯


我還買了幾包貼紙,一直捨不得用。這次戒嚴,我沒有把膠帶帶在身邊⋯⋯這,開始用第二張。用來寫關於少女心。


其中一包貼紙,有好幾張都是多肉植物在杯子裡面。於是,我畫了這個。在寫一杯子的花時,發現那個「杯」字有點像十指緊扣的樣子,想用畫筆,把那個「木」和「不」畫成骨頭人,手牽手。不過,畫功有限,怕把它給破壞了。於是,就保持原來的樣子。


在臉書練字樓小組裡,有人分享了一段字。這個「把一份沈默留給自己」特別打動我。於是弄了這頁。



這是幾天前在另一本journal裡,把帶在身邊的clear stamp都蓋章起來。


這頁,原本是想弄成mind map那樣的。我先把中間那個郵票蓋上。接下來,應該是畫一些連接線的。結果,就蓋了那個明信片的印章。再後來,就寫下了旅行重播的那段字。因此,就在那明信片那裡,給自己問好。哈哈!


這是今天弄的最後一張。在貼紙堆裡看到了星巴克的咖啡圖案。我已經很久沒去星巴克了。以前,覺得星巴克是那些有錢人去的地方。自卑感作祟,我不敢去。後來,和一些同事朋友去過後,就覺得去了星巴克,好像把自己的身份提高了幾分。然後,好像去星巴克是屬於自己的生活常態。想要也給家人洗腦洗腦,帶他們去星巴克。不過,他們沒喜歡星巴克,因為太貴了。近年來,我也甚少去星巴克了。還是覺得,以前歷史老師說我活得像老人家,比較像自己,就是喜歡喝咖啡烏。喜歡那黑黑、甜甜、香香、濃濃的咖啡烏。


最後,再放一張展示其中一包貼紙。^^

羨慕那些很輕鬆的可以做好手帳的YouTuber。